12.13.2016

Fault Lines (NYPC.3)

The love line on my palm is beginning
to tremble.
Best to hide under the desk,
crouch in the doorway,
fight the urge to evacuate.
Do anything except act.

Stand by. Wait.

I tried looking into the future
but my crystal ball has
always been shady, clouded
by the smoke that stuck
to my lungs like the mustard
he always liked on his sandwiches.

*

The head line on my palm has shattered
and is too faint to notice.
We used to line up—
an engineered perfection,
but we have been cracked open
enough times to shift.

Notice me.

Can’t be undone, can’t be unbroken,
like the plates that fell from
our lips and couldn’t be
crazy glued back together.
Some of the pieces were as
small as what we’ve become.

*

The life line on my palm has been
dormant too long,
pulsating constantly under my feet.
It’ll be all my fault
when the foundation finally starts rattling,
and you’ll say,

“This may just be the big one.”

12.11.2016

AKG (NYPC.2)

When I was twelve, I had hoped he would ask me to sing with him.

I knew he could hear me belting 90s R&B as I paced the kitchen.

I pretended to be embarrassed, but I wanted him to ask;

it would have been proof that I was the blood of his blood;

that I was good enough.


I don’t think about him anymore. Not like I used to.

His death is much like my own now: abstract and looming.

I keep part of him on the mantle, except during Christmas

when I hide him behind singing snowmen

with the dead batteries inside.


I still sing in the kitchen

but only when I don't think anyone is listening.

I'm still waiting for him to ask me.




liquid (NYPC.1)

snot drips toward her lip.
she pretends not to notice
her despair.

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