Perhaps you’re in Paris
A picture you’ve seen of a cobblestone street
An alley with laundry hanging off a terrace
Bicyclists pedaling their daily bread
Arm in arm with your best friend
erratically staggering to the sing-song melody
your own drummer’s beating
It rains. Shouting now, faces to God you keep chuckling
grinning like Cheshire cats and stumbling with the wonder of living
Somewhere behind your eyes flickers a candle
wishing for this moment to last forever
when suddenly you see him just around the bend cradling a cigarette beneath the streetlight
Tips his hat at the sight of you, nonchalant
That familiar avalanche of ice unfurls in your chest while your heart stills, embalming
in a stubborn, lingering love
The soles of your shoes meld with the stone beneath you as prayer hands do
Foot to boulder begging you to keep swaying, keep howling your dreams to the rainclouds
Turn around, Alice, before it’s too late
before he tenderly abandons you between the rocks and hard places that have so easily become home
before this crevice of desire becomes the rabbit hole you keep falling in
Rip open your breast just a little to let the droplets in. Let your heart thaw so you can remember
the sun is always shining, even when it hides
Perhaps you’re falling
Lightning strikes, it’s thundering. Vision blurring behind the torrent and your stomach is drowning
Clocks begin swirling, up is down is up is down is up
The symphony is halting. He silently reaches out his hand and you eagerly clutch
It burns sharply, but you’re accustomed to the pain—
it’s as temporary as the relief
It’d be simple if he were menacing, violent. Instead he taunts gently and leaves invisible scars
Addiction reveals himself in the loveliest places
is the shadow behind the treasure chest
the bee sting hidden in rose petals
an empty, rusted pot at the end of a rainbow
Sweet surrender seems the only escape of his draw
Hold your breath, Alice. Through gritted teeth repeat after me
You will not, you will not, you will not win today
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4/2/14
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